Disclaimer: I think I’m about to purchase a Fuji XT-2 and two lenses. Having said this.
You have to have the guts. Now, the definition of guts changes from person to person. The best work I’ve ever done came from the guts of this bag. If I had to guess, were I to attempt to make high level work again, my best bet would be to return to the guts of this bag, but there are many, many intangibles involved in doing what I need to do, when I need to do it and for whom. This is where complexity comes in. With complexity comes sacrifice, homogenization, speed and consequence, all the things you DON’T want to impact your work. When I am alone I am pure. I am clear, conscious, focused and patient. When I wear the hat of another all bets are off.
I find myself caught between two worlds, and none of you can know quite the extent what I’m talking about, but it’s true. My needs, their needs. The question is how to do both without losing bearing because once that safety line is released it is nearly impossible to get it back.
$2000 divided by $27.00 is roughly 75. The new math. But when you add the time delay this number drops dramatically.
So moving forward I need balance. And that balance comes with another balance; sanity. One of the great things about getting older is you have less patience for what you know is wrong, or not optimal or not conducive to greatness. And you understand immediately when others don’t get it.
Much happening at the moment. Mostly good, but there is no denying the deck is being shuffled. Now it’s time to flip the first card. Lay your bets.